One day I was reading a book on "solitude"… It was a fresh morning. I was alone in the house. Slowly...slowly...my mind became calm and relaxed, and I went into a heightened state of awareness where everything was seeming one... everything was connected to everything else. A sort of immense bliss was streaming throughout my entire being. I was feeling extreme love for everyone. My consciousness had become totally radiant and alive. It was great inner silence. Thoughts were there, but not so frantic as they used to be. Everything was seeming so beautiful... so clear... as if I had got a new vision, never experienced before. It was like a child looking at the world for the first time... the fog of ego lifted up and the truth was revealed. It was an experience of total bliss, peace, power, contentment, and much more than I could ever explain. Time had completely stopped for a while. I had a deep feeling: I have always been here for centuries, and will always be here - I am home. Everything was just perfect as if some kind of mysterious puzzle was solved. Everything happening around me was perfect and precise. This was the first time I knew the meaning of perfection in my life. I was experiencing a sense of vastness or limitlessness. I was feeling: I am God, my body is a mere costume, and I am beyond this costume... I am in everyone and everywhere at the same time... everyone, including trees, mountains, people are my projections wearing different costumes. I am endless. For the first time I was experiencing that God is not in temple or church... he is not merely in the form of idols. He is in me, and everyone, and everywhere. He is formless. I can feel now with deep conviction that I know God!
A person who has never eaten a chocolate in his lifetime - how can we explain to him in words how it tastes? I am in the same situation right now: only personal experience can give a real taste.
It was an immensely joyous state without reason. I wished this state would never end. I was trying to hold it... But I couldn't. It lasted a whole day… very slowly it was fading away. I had no control over it. It has left its' traces in my soul. It was just an unforgettable day in my life...
Since that day I changed completely. My outlook has become more positive, less angry, less worried. That experience freed me permanently from past hurts. My nature has become more accepting and loving towards people and situations. Ego fluctuations do come, but do not rise to a peak like before… the ego itself feels powerless. Whenever ego arises, my awareness harnesses it, and immediately I find the way to peace, and things starts seeming perfect.
I feel compassion and love for those I was hating before. I try to see the positive side of people. I do not get upset when people do wrong things. I tell myself: "forgive them, they haven't experienced God. They are behaving from their own level of awareness."
I have become more peaceful, efficient, confident and creative. I appreciate the beauty that surrounds me. I enjoy being myself.
I wish everybody in the world should get at least a glimpse of such experience in their journey. I am very grateful that I have had such an experience.
Yes - I too am very grateful for experiencing the divine - such an experience changes one's life, very much for the better. I do believe that anyone who seeks the divine earnestly will experience something similar in good time.